Friday, October 30, 2009


1. Hospital Appointments sucks - I got a fairly sad news (including a suggested surgery) and another 4 month to go with the lovely steroids.

2. I look like an alien. Enough said.

3. Why am I stressed staying at home - it shouldn't be isnt it?

4. I want to run away.

5. Something I said quite often (inside my mind) = Perasaan jantung berdegup bila nampak orang yang kita suka, satu perasaan yang bestkan? =

6. I live in denial - the person I like, well... the feelings only bound to stay within the wall of KMB. Its not going to go anywhere pon but... like Aesya said - tak kisah kalau orang tu tak kenal kita or know that we exist. Perasaan suka tu yang lagi penting - if confused, refer to no 5.

7. The workload and family commitment is killing me. I even closed one eye blind just so that I can have my own life. - Outing with Aesya

Conclusion = I have a heavy load on my shoulder... and it hurts.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I am truly... messed up? I don't really how to face life challenges right now because somehow... hurm. Well just because life does not really go the way you want it to be, it does not give you the right to go blame anyone else. I guess this is it. Hypocrisy.

Everyday I am on the prayer mat asking for a better life and yet i am complaining about life off the prayer mat. Can't you see why my life ain't getting better?? Its because i keep complaining!~ I should do something about it. Look at it more positively I suppose.

Exam's is just around the corner. A huge hunch is telling me that... other than having my EE flushed down the toilet, the exam is going to be a tough one. What are my commitments?
I need to get my head straight really.


Saturday, October 17, 2009

Nak mengaku benda yang paling penting. Dah lama diri ini tidak merapu and meluahkan rasa dihati. But truth to be told, there was just no time for me crap out rants. Seriously. Life's like that.

Point to note though. Summerization of a crazy life.
1. I eat too much.
2. I love my baju raya
3. I had a crush + out of league = living in a dreamland (hoping in the future the guy i marry would be just like or even better than him, *wink2*
4. Finally grasp the jeez of EE
5. Got lectured by Pn Salma. Bet she thinks im some kind of a dumbass (im not really- i just have a complex brain)
6. A total of 146 pills have been digested to date. Steroids i mean.
7. My body looks like shit. Seriously