Truthfully... no really knows who I am. I actually live a double life. Its not that hard. There's me and there's another me. The other me which comes out only in the darkest moment due to boredom and well... the temptations of the devil. Really, i have tried to vanquish and kill the other me but i failed over and over again. It makes me feel guilty each and everytime i live the other me but i can't seem to run away from it.
I wish to start 2010 by killing the other me. Another ferocious attempt. See how long it will last this time.
Promises and Pledges 2010
- Kill the other me
- A better servant of Allah, daughter, student, sibling, friend.
- To actually grow up (im 20 already)
- More hardworking (in studies, life and health)
- Lose weight gained due to steroid (i look like a panda)
- There are a lot of other things that i just can't list down right now...
Another thing to rant is... I feel depressed doing my EE. Just because i really don't know what to write in the discussion. Nothing make sense actually. Haih... really. Its really a poor attempt. I just have to do it right. Close one eye and just finish it. Damn it. Its so hard!~~