To grow up is actually a simple physiological process because we don't realise it. We never stop and ponder what each of out cells are doing. They are actually breathing, reproducing and fighting for us just so that we can call what we are doing now, 'living and growing'.
But, what is the meaning of living and growing actually? There is no real answer to this question. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. To forgive and let live, to slow down and just observe, to sit in silence and be thankful, to actually be letting go of things and ready for something new and of course... i just learnt this, to accept your own mistakes and let it be a part of who you are.
More often than not... we just forget. We forget that we have made the same mistake and unknowingly... we repeat it and end up with the same guilt. We're just human. We forget. Human nature sets us like that.
However... we shouldn't really be in despair. I have heard once, 'No one ever loves me...'. If that was really true... that person wouldn't even have the privillage of saying it in the first place. ALLAH loves each and every inch of our body and soul because we are His first of all. Each piece of fragment in our body are there functioning because ALLAH says so. If he doesn't care... he would't let you exist. In context of exist... it means even if you die because of you were miscarried, if does not mean you never existed.
"... and don't kill yourself because Allah is the Most Loving"
Making mistakes is a part of growing up or else life would be too boring. Also... sometimes making mistakes makes you closer to Allah right. Im just saying this because... time has passed by and I know I have many wrong doings towards my mother. I just don't know how to face her. I just get awkward.
Anyway dear friends... never give up. Im saying this as a reminder to myself. Counting days to the results can really pull someone's nerve. Im praying for strength to face it. Be optimistic and pray hard. Is the best thing you can do for now.
On another note... Im getting fat. Help!~