Saturday, October 30, 2010

Sense of Senseless

Have you ever been pondering about things and reminder comes to you just like that. For example, while flipping the channels,picking up the magazines or even hearing it on the radio.

Things have happened.. and I know... will happen and yet I feel helpless. In a position where I can't be doing nor saying anything because then, it would be rude. Although the intentions are there... and yet I can't do anything but just to hold back.

Of course, the weakest Iman of all is to hold back and hate the action.

I would admit that I am not proud of what happened (still happening??)... but when Allah really gives his best to help by allowing me to see the reminders... I feel like I am important to Him. Regardless of how very insignificant I am. Reminders coming to me like bullets, forcing me to wake up and realize my mistake... that at one point i just thought...

'If people who are receving reminders and the right pathway simply ignores it... then it is actually them who are more blind than actual blind people themselves'

Then it scares me. Until when would Allah care about me to remind me? Of course He would never give up on us. I've seen it with my own eyes. The company im working for is a small company but the owners, I don't know.. maybe have a little disadvantage in the knowledge of religion... but I guess because they are generally nice people, Allah still in his own subtle ways try to remind them of Him. Apparently, our only stable client is an Haji/Religion related company... hence, do you see?. Its like knocking in their face. I really hope that they would get the Hidayah before its too late.

(Actually on the contrary... I know we are small and quite insignificant compared to anything at all but I feel somehow we are his greatest creation, so actually, we are very significant to him... isnt' it? Otherwise... he wouldn't even bother giving subtle reminders right?? - just musing about the things i've learn about how insignificant we are )

Anyways... when you longed for someone to appreciate and look at you. He already is and you don't really have to look far...

As a perfectly normal person with flaw... there are moments that I feel unjustified... unappreciative of what I have. Human complains... and I am a part of that too. However, I just have to keep reminding myself, that what I am and what I have is already better than most people around the world and I should be thankful.

I have to constantly remind myself that everything would be alright.



Friday, October 22, 2010

About Presents

When talking about presents... most would think of the fancy stuff with ribbons and lace. Some stars and hearts gift paper wrappings, chocolates and of course, mugs. Not forgetting teddy bears and what not. I mean.. for my age group. At this stage.. if you are rich enough then maybe a Burberry bag is ample enough.

However back to the main point... Actually I would like to share what I would like for presents. I am not hinting anything here.. but after you pass the age of 20.. I would prefer something more practical actually.

I for once.. dreamt of getting a set of blenders and juice extractor as a birthday gift. I think thats practical. Or a bamboo weaved laundry basket. Of course as you can see... the price for each item the out of the question. Its just a thought really.

In a nutshell... I would actually prefer a practical gift then just teddy bear and flowers and mugs. For example, a good book with a personal note and a slit in dry flower would already bring smile. I think that is a good gift.

But the best gift of all is when they come out of sincerity of the giver. Anything handmade actually... but I can't apply that to me.. because my craftsmenship is BAD. So, I choose to be practical.

By the way, just the other day I went out with my friends. Coincidently, she was actually looking for a wedding present. After final deliberation.. she picked out a RM100 photo album. I just told her, "Wan, please don't buy me a photo album for my wedding present". and she replied "No, don't worry I know you like practical gift".

Practical gift are the best. At least you know that, you or them will at least use it for maybe a couple of years rather than being kept in dust and thrown away like junk. Even if its from thier sincere heart.

Please don't get offended. I do appreciate every single gift that comes my way.. I'm just talking about practicality. :)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

In A Coconut Shell

Nope... this is not about having to write the wrong idiom in any circumstances. Lately.... I just have no substance to write. Most of the time I really have to agree with myself (after a tiresome debate), that actually, my post is kinda useless. True isn't it?

Anyways.. I always have considered myself to be living in a coconut shell... because I can never really keep up with the world. Too fast paced. Nobody ever stops and smell the roses anymore. They are just too concern with the unpicked dog poop. Somehow there is some sense of truth in this, isn't it?

Always to have caught up with responsibily and always trying to give your best only to realise that at the end of the day, life is actually too short. Only those lucky ones would realise it... but I guess you would have to clear your mind to even let that line of thought to penetrate your brain processing unit.

Have anyone ever thought that less is actually more. In business or aesthetics its called a minimalist concept. I've came across a dish called 'Minimalist Burger' (Disclaimer : I do not create nor own this particular dish. It respectifully belongs to the expensive restaurant in which I have forgotten the name). Its just a beef patty with 4 squirts of different sauce around it. True to its name, it is minimalist.

However, the cost of such thing would take 1/4 of my salary... in which I refuse to disclose... but you can imagine how expensive it is. But, back to my main point. Less is more. In fact, this statement are true in some ways but totally defies in another point.

Bad points.
1. I do not agree with less clothing on human beings... especially the females. I feel like they have been exploited and used without realising consciously of the outcomes. Although it is a 'right', but in the long run it aint good actually. You'd be prone to skin cancer - with this global warming and all... but I think most would understand why Im saying this.

2. 'Less is more' is not true when you apply to the sickly condition of poverty. We need more. Actually.. i've heard somewhere that the food in this world is actually enough for every human being. You don't believe me? Just go and check your garbage. Im pretty sure there are some rotten leftovers. Think about it.

3. I don't believe that 'less is more' appropriate in terms of our good deeds. There should be more good deeds and less plotting to get richer while killing someone else in the process. Really, I think human in general sometimes have a glitch in their brain and yet they blame only the computers do.


Good Points
1. 'Less is more' is good when you have less lipids on your body. I mean.. hey I am seriously applying this to myself. I acknowledge it and Im dealing with it. So, shoo!~. Anyways, a good health is always the best thing to have. Prevention is better than medication. Poor Mr. Liver I tell you!~ I would strive to live a more healthy lifesytle once I reach Aussie. Really!~ :3

2. Less is more when there would be less deceit and lie and wrath and all the negative things in this world... but most of the time, we don't even realise it when we alias'ed with Mr. Bad2... Truly, with the less of Mr Bad2's influence the world would truly be at a more happy place. But, I guess thats why we have Heaven and Hell.

3. Also, less is more when you can learn to love yourself more and be confident. Yes, maybe we are less beautiful than the other person. Or maybe, we are just a tad less intelligent than that person... but hey, what makes a human a person and not just some bionical machine is the "less part" of you. You are unique. Don't lose yourself... the diamond is in you.

So, by living in this coconut shell of mine. I have to admit that I haven't ventured far yet... or maybe worse didn't even move. =_=!~ but, these are my point of views.

Let it be ne?


Saturday, October 2, 2010

Uncommon Life

As opposed to be become the most knowledgable person in Medicine, I have ventured into something which is totally opposite of it. Business.

Yes, I have learnt it before. Application wise? Well, seems that in reality those theory is not really applicable. Its more to you understanding it and implementing it but really, you don't walk into the office and start to talk about motivational theories.

Its a subconcious thing.

In the end... it is actually how you deal with it. If you got a nasty bos, deal with it. Its not getting any better. He is who he is. His better part of life has been that way and no way jose' is that going to change. Not from you at least. If you got a reasonable bos, then please thank Allah and not your lucky stars.

My take on my current working experiences have made me muse about several things. My boss and (ex??)- colleague said that I was too nice and can be taken advantages on. Me being nice? Hahaha... really? I am definitely polite but nice? Hurm... let me take on a rain check.

I don't curse.. so much.

I don't know... I live by the laws of my religion. If people wants to take advantage of me, without me realising it. Allah is always there.

Prayers of those whose being taken advantages of will be granted by Allah. Pretty much, I don't really have to worry. The only thing I have to worry is the quality of my prayers in which I really think is depleting every seconds that passes by. I have to make sure my good deeds are more than my sins.

I call it an addiction. The only thing that can cure it is to keep me occupied, a distraction away from it. In which is quite impossible. That's why I work. The real reason actually... other than to get extra cash of course.

However, talking about cash. I so do not make much... but i guess its enough. It is because... I have to pay for the car, I have to pay for the petrol and other miscellaneous that happens now and then.

So yeah.

There are a few gadgets that I need/want... mostly on the 'want' part actually. :P
1. Twinhead/Fujitsu Laptop.
2. Samsung YP-P3 MP3
3. Nokia (Haven't decided on the model) Handphone.

Why do I not see a camera. Don't know... Maybe I just don't have the money allocated for it. Hahah... I don't seem to want to record my life in photographs. It does not really paint the picture. Many people don't get this but... people's opinion differ. I know to some extent its a memory worth to keep, your experience, the record of your life. Im cool with that - or maybe I am just not photogenic enough. ^^!

Anyways, I shy away from cameras. I am just not fond of them.

Next thing, when you suffered a bad case of body sore... it only means some thing you have worked on is a success. Thing about me is... I can't surround myself with negative people. I am negative myself. So I will repel them. Ughh. That why I prefer to work alone.

In medicine world : Alone = Death sentence. You must learn to work in groups.

Enough of my rants.

Im bored. :P